whispering "sayap timur, dimana engkau..."

whisper on my own ears, and try to listen to my own voice, my self.
"di mana engkau, wahai sayap timur... selama ini engkau ada, meski engkau pun tak pernah hadir.."
sudah jelas... tak mungkin ada yang akan mendengar..
don't ever think some wings will shown their face up.. they will never hear.. even my ears cannot tell what the meaning of them.

hmm.. don't bother..
sudahlah..
damn you.. don't you ever know that I have wait for this long, and you never show even once? bahkan pada saat-saat tersulitku, kau juga tak mencoba ada dan bertahan?
kutukan demi kutukan keluar right from my mouth dan aku tak pernah mencoba to stop it, for god shake! namun apa akhirnya yang aku pikirkan, stupidity, but will never back in time.